Good Morning!!! i am now in sch =X so early so cool...
actually cool sai o.O
haiz.... juz ate my "dinner"... taste so awful... was choking myself.. bitter heart..
y i say dinner? i haven had my proper dinner since last night.. n i nv sleep so tis continous meal shall be my dinner^^ over the long night.. i only doze off few times which only give me roughly 20min rest.. i dunno y.. now i still can tahan.. no mhj no nth.. i am alive!!!
i cant sleep i told myself... i cant!!!!
if i sleep.. its gone... =( tats y i keep tell myself i cant sleep... i did my best =( but still seems to be a bad outcome....
washed face til eye pain pain... thn later heart pain pain.. now back pain pain... aiyo....
haiz was really depressed... was ignored ignored n ignored...
like during dawn... my mum juz came b from work... i knew its her.. she know i am awake cos of my door light.. she din knock in which she usually will... she go straight to her room... at first i tot she din noe i'm awake? hehx... but later... dad came to my room ask me 'why i so long still awake...' , a short reply from me.. doing proj got him off le.. hes too tired to say so much but juz ask me rest early... well... hence the case behind is tat... mum went home and woke my dad to ask him to check on me...
my mum dun wan tok to me =(
propably becoz yest night i raised my voice at her.... =( haiz... y lik tat leh... quite saddening... still i told myself i cant sleep! cos its abt time to wake my darling le...
well.. actually the night din really gone wasted.. i did chiong my fyp but my com is really freaking retarded=( its too SLOW.... it testing my patient man... but how? bo bian... tolerated n did abt 5 layout and i can say money shopping part is done... but still much more to fan abt fyp...
sianz...
seriously when i feel so ignored so lonely.. i always think of a word called 'classmate'
wads classmates actually mean? haha dun ask me.. i dunnoe? it doesnt apply to my own dictionary i guess... classmates! haha joke... dun say classmates.. i hear the word class i laffing le... wad a mocking experience in my life.. classmates....
booOoo..
dota ah dota... i lost u... deeply lost.. desire ability n capability... i lost deeply....
y i feel so useless n unfair but i guess tats wad life is...
i'm grown up... i needa be strong! so many ppl for me to look after.. i muz jia you jia you..
so many upcoming personnal proj comingT_T jia you jia you
yep actually i started my own wishing bottle campaign... i write notes for myself.. tok to myself... reply to myself... n kept it in my cute pacifier bottle^^ full le DUMP THEM in sea!!
so cartoon ba... but i think its cool!
aiya.. its same thing here... i type in blog.. i ans in blog... hehx..
y am i so useless ah.... so wad if smart.. i dunno how to use =.= dummy...
its too dark for me... i gonna get more sunshine n tan tan... =D stay cheerful n bottled those troubles... CATCH THEM! KEEP THEM! DEAL WIF THEM!!!
alright.... gonna do my fyp le.. meeting up wif my groupmates soon liao...
i cant sleep i cant sleep =.= i need to wait ppl blahs.....
something tat is hard to get is something really worth to get!~
is tat sleep? haha...